She finally smiles

She walks around the familiar lines

Step by step

Looking with greater passion

As if it was for the last time 

She walks and stops and walks 

To re imagine each moment spent 

Relive each memory

Those days of fun

And moments of fear

Of building

And destroying 

So crystal clear 

The walls narrate her story to herself 

They witnessed it all after all

They cry because they couldn't comfort her 

In times of chaos and mourn

Those objects she bought in happy times

Stare at her as she walks around

Shining at once with her chirpy sound 

Stood today dusted with deafening silent sound 

She walks and stops and walks around

With a smile on her face

May be these lifeless objects understood her more

Than any cell draining her head 

She takes a deep breath 

And gasps in for air 

Knowing it so different around 

She glimpses the stains of tears 

And the long lost joy profound 

She doesn't care about changing her clothes

Or packing her bags 

Or doing her hair well

This journey she was about to initiate 

Was hopefully better than any heaven or hell

She leaves her bedroom

Walks down to the lobby

Hoping to catch a glimpse of the morning sun

Peeping through the window 

Everything is dark 

But yet she sees light

In the next steps of her 

Bliss 

She knows mommy is annoyed

And dad probably has been silent in pain

She knows that all are worried for her

Its all such a sad stain

She can see people whispering 

But she can finally not hear a word 

Oh thank god 

She whispers to herself

She is finally free from the burden of her nature 

She walks around 

To reach the door 

But stops as she hears her name

Looking around she notices how

He sits somewhere in a corner 

Quiet and straight faced

She closes her eyes 

And looks at herself 

Lying so lifeless on the ground

Beautiful she feels

Smiling inside 

This was the end after all

She talks to him 

But he still cant hear

Its like even this didn't change 

She bids goodbye 

To all the familiar faces

With a smile 

No one will worry about her 

No one will carry the grief 

No one will have to wonder why she is abnormal

Crazy or a severe pain

No one will need to understand her dilemmas

Or try to prioritize her anymore 

She was finally free

Just thinking about herself 

Waiting to get lost 

Away from this world 

Oh so fake. 

- Diary of an Oxymoron

Random thoughts to live by

Crawling thoughts and crippled mind

Open my head and that's what u find

A silently howling cat like witch 

With an open wound & undon stitch

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Water burnt me

Leavin scars so deep

That green blood oozed out

With Frozen memories to keep

Is it impossible, I shout

Sadly abuses end in beep

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This poetry of mine is always incomplete

For the pain is alive to stop me from being upbeat

Strong enough to finish the story

And call it my personal glory

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Bleeding blue, bleeding red, bleed and bleed

Till d time you empty the color of greed

Greed to satisfy your soul with a lie

Once it's over, off you fly

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Let loose the grip you crazy lost cause

It's better to end story then to live in pause

For the ironic life won't always rhyme

Thoughts worth a dime?

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The oooh's and aah's turned sore

Moods sucked as stunk the core

Still giving up seems so tough

Happy to live a lie so rough?

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Past in present is a deep bruise

How do you give up, let it loose

It didn't rhyme neither matched the steps

As one ate lentil, other made crepes

- Diary of an Oxymoron

चलना है, तोह चलेंगे आगे

तस्वीर में छुपी वोह हसी कि कहानी
वोह उस दिन यूँह सुना पुराना एक गाना
कुछ बिखरी हुई ज़ुल्फ़ें और एक लम्बी सड़क
क्या खुद में खो जाने की ख़ुशी इसे ही कहते हैं?

वोह कुछ बिखरे हुए कागज़, यादें हैं सम्भाले
और बातें कई हवाओं में अभी भी सुनायी देतीं हैं
फिर वोह रास्ता जिसपे चला करते थे यूँह
क्या उसमें खो जानें कि ख़ुशी इसी को कहते हैं?

एक सूना सन्नाटा, कुछ शोर कुछ लड़ाई
वोह चुपके से शांति का यूँ चले आना
कुछ हंसी के ठहाके, रोना और रुलाना
क्या पल में ठहर जाना इसी को कहते हैं?

चलना है, तोह चलेंगे आगे
रुकने को आखिर किसने कहा है
पर पल पल साथ रहती जो हैं बातें
उन्हें जी लें पल पल इसी में मज़ा है