Knots

Melting, in this land of heat 

As I try to stay afloat I often meet

The sunshine, the shaking land and wind crazy

Making me water, so hazy

I am falling, dunno where to flow 

No direction no place to go 

Uncertainties in my trembling self I see

Maybe waiting to phase out to free

the smiles r erasing out, 

In solitude I often pout

You see me as this shining flow

And I m here, shud I stand still or should I grow?

 oh sunshine, of land why the pain? 

Wat is there in phasing out to gain? 

Loosing a part of me every second of the day

April, or month f may

I enjoy the tremble, the suffocating knots,

On blank pages they are red blots

They make me feel alive, dying

It's no joke, no m not lying

should I enjoy the change or break free? 

Should I transform into new or just stay me?

Not easy, knot easy, it is to answer. Isn't it?